Dear Depression

Dear Depression,
  

Some people don’t understand the connection we share,

“Oh snap out of it” is their response too ignorant to care,

Too ignorant to ask questions or simply just too scared,

I was never actually prepared,

For how much of me you’d overtake and invade,

Bit by bit, every emotion you slayed,

You took away my being able to feel,

You took away my coping mechanism and how to deal,

With even minor things that would happen in life,

Made me feel that the only way to cope was with a knife,

Pressed down deep onto my skin,

You made me feel asif I was dying from within,

You made me feel worthless,

You made me feel anxious,

You made me feel like I was dead,

You made me have dark thoughts in my head,

You made me lose interest in the things I once loved,

Infact you made me feel unloved,

You see I’m one of the lucky ones that is able,

To say that their mental state is now near stable,

The Drs are now happy with my progress,

My life could have been a complete mess,

But I had friends, who loved me even when I couldn’t love myself,

Some didn’t even understand that I had a problem with my health,

Depression doesn’t make you look physically ill,

But still they made it their will,

To make me better make me back to the old me,

I know that it was up to me though internally,

I had all the support but I had to tackle,

Depression head on and so I went into battle,

With this deep dark disease and there were some days,

When I wanted to go back to my old ways,

I felt like I didn’t want to get out of bed,

I felt I’d be better off dead,

I felt like I didn’t want the world to see me,

My friends however wouldn’t leave me be,

So you see depression you have not won,

And I know this battle is far from done,

My frozen from fear body now begins to thaw,

It’s a slow process but I feel stronger than I was before,

And as the scars on my body begin to fade,

I’m glad on this Earth I have stayed,

For there are people you have managed to destroy,

The things they once loved they no longer enjoy,

You manage to break them down until they see no way,

To carry on, so they take their own life you lead them astray,

Depression I hate you and I hate what you did to me,

However, I have risen to victory,

You cannot control me and I will not let you,

I know I have the support of my support network too,

I’m gonna kick your butt and when I’m done,

You’re going to wish you never had begun,

Bullying me for that is what you did,

Some days all I did was hid,

from the world, And I hate that you allow me,

To not see all the worlds natural beauty,

I am now grateful for every single day I am alive,

I am grateful for my very few friends that stayed by my side,

I am grateful for my parents for always being there,

I am grateful for you too Depression but you didn’t keep me in your snare,

For now I know the signs and symptoms I can help others,

Depression affects anyone whether it is a friend or even your mother,

Depression you haven’t won this battle and I’m sorry to break it to you,

I was just too strong in the end and if you’re reading this and feel this way too,

I’m always here,

To lend my ear,

We can kick Depressions butt together,

For there is strength in numbers, so be kind to each other! :)